right.
ytd went to the gym,
and did 45 minutes of running in total.
and now my whole body is aching.
i am finally working out.

today's teachers day was alright.
especially the part when the teachers performed.
i think mr m is hot and hilarious.
ms c and mr j like danced?
right.
it was all hilarious.
and Ariel can fucking dance salsa?!!!
like omg,
i am so jealous.!!!
shit.
she can fucking do it!
nice lah!
pfffft.
and the other acts were just lame?!!!

i was pissed.
very pissed.
but you apologized.
and i forgave,
coz you are my best friend.
keep that in mind.


elegance


natesha is so annoying.
sucha wanna beeee.
journalists?
ya la nat,
your english very good lah okay?
then show off lah?
:)

i wanna help you.
i am willing to help you.
clear your things.
i am ready.
but not ready to let you go.
never.
my heart is fully open to you,
cikgu rathia.


the pain is still here.
and i dont think it will ever fade away.
never.
and i dont want it to fade away.
because remembering you its like remembering the first day i saw you when i stepped into kc.

the memories of the day you were healthy in school
and the memories of yesterday
is permanant.
from those days till yesterday
when they carried the coffin up high,
into the bus.
at that moment,
i felt like chasing the bus.
i felt like being with you
by your grave.

i still cannot let it go.
nobody will ever let it go.
people say,
the pain will go soon,
now that you are in god hands.

cikgu, will you ever visit me?
here in my home.
or are you still angry for the things i've done to you?
im sorry cikgu.
really i am.
but please,
forgive me for all my sins against you.
will you?

how i wish you would stay forever.

I LOVE YOU DEARLY,
CIKGU RATHIA.


i still cannot let it go.
i didn't know it will hit me this bad.
i really cannot let it go.
i still cannot accept the fact that you have already left.
this is so pain.
VERY pain.

cikgu,maafkan lah aku cikgu.
kerana terlalu biadap terhadap cikgu.
untuk dosa-dosa aku.
cikgu, aku janji aku akan belajar bersungguh-sungguh.
cikgu, cikgu akan selalu dalam hati aku.

although my malay sucks,
i will always do my best for you cikgu.

i am filled with guilt.
guilty of talking behind your back.
guilty of taking your expired chocolates.
why do you have to go so soon?
i never had a chance to say sorry to you.
i never had a chance to last talk to you.
after hearing that they dont allow us to visit you,
i changed my mind.
cikgu, every night i pray for you.
to give you good health.
cikgu, you were the best.
cikgu, i love you dearly.
and if you were there just now,
everyone who came loves you so much.

how i wish i could see you again.
i wanna see you the way i always see you during malay class.
at the computer,
playing solitare.
you at your table,
stirring & drinking your drink.
how i wish i really could see you.
at least in my dreams maybe?
i couldn't stop myself from crying when i saw you just now.
i couldn't help myself.
my heart beat very fast.
i cannot stop crying up till now.
i couldn't stop crying,
even though i know it would never help.
i was pathetic just now.
i wish i could do one last thing for you.
be it,
go down to the office to ask mdm hadijah something.
be it,
buy for you a coffee.
anything.
just name it.
you were the best.
i swear.

now,
i hope you are resting in peace.
no more sufferring.
no more pain.
no more work.
no more medicines.
i really hope that you are really in peace.

here i am,
shivering away.

im sorry for everything

cikgu, i'll ALWAYS love you.






miss S was being mother fucking irritating!
i swear!
nat, i hate her too !
FUCK MAN.!
she didnt even book the fucking time slot for our class remedial today.
(maybe she did book but SHE DIDN'T EVEN TELL US!)
so we told miss jane that we are free.
and some of the girls went down to the art room and do art.
then suddenly she went in.
saying: "aiya girls! today remedial geography lah! aiyo"
so me and kendra replied: "YOU DIDN'T EVEN TELL US! NOW WE ARE DOING OTHER WORK! OTHER TEACHERS WORK! AND WE DIDN'T EVEN BRING OUR BOOKS!(when all our book were under the table)
then she said to me:"aiya this girl. can you shuddup!"
FUCK SIA!
and she blamed my kitty because some girls went down,!
ugh !
dont wanna talk about her already lah!
piece of shit!

why cant she just stay at st.pats
if she already kene fired
just dont work anymore
get the point
you CANNOT teach
thats y they fired you!
and stop it with YOUR nonsence
coz you are NOT teaching us
GET IT?!


i am SUPER in the mood for CAMWHORING!!!!
tsk!
i want a digi cam!
tsk


elegance


went to the gym today.
lost some weight.
I THINK.
because straight after working out i ate chocolate?
TWO chocolate.
but i t was a great time with natesha,nicki, BALLS and melsa.
LOVES !

i dont wanna do lit !



elegance


omg
just seeing alan smith made me gain back all my energy!
omg!
seeing him on you tube.
and his website.
he will like never give up.
alex is like wanting him to replace ruud as a striker!
like omg!
after a SERIOUS injury, HE IS NOW BACK IN ACTION!'
so the loves!
watch!:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3pxTpEMVIKc

omg!
natesha you shoud really watch this!
he never gives up i tell you!
NEVER!!!!
ALEX LOVES HIM LAH!
look at all the injuries he has been through and he never ever cried once!
unlike c.ronaldo, he never cried.
unlike that cry baby!
all the blood dripping from his head to the ankle sticking out,
EVERYONE shoud really watch this!
his tackles are SUPERB!
after tackling, he can immediately get the ball back!
amazing lah!
he so the opposite of wayne rooney.
rooney has so many chances but only sometimes scores?
every chance he gets to score is CONFIRM a goal.

HE IS JUST SO FUCKING HOT HOT HOT!!!!
I LOVE ALAN SMTIH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



elegance


PESS IS COMING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i am SOOOO glad that it is on a saturday!
9 SEPTEMBER 2006!
excited!
we hadn't had carnivals in like ages???!!!!!

netball trng today
and yes, coach is soooo addicted to suicide runs.
so he made us do, 6-8 suicides?
walaoweyyy...
he think we who?!!!
guys?
he called me a guy! :/
but doing this will increase our stamina?
MY stamina.
my stamina now SUCKS!
and i think he is very the blind?
his eyes are sooooo small.....
he cannot coach?
okay i dont blame hime,
coz its his first time coaching netball:)

sheryl had DANIEL's name on her hand!
coach DANIEL?!
haha.
nice to meet you sheryl.
are you like pointing your middle finger to your computer now?!
lol!
she claims that her walk is nice.
i tell you, NOBODY walks like that!
NOBODY!
so stop thinking that your walk is cool sherylngmeilian!
lol
LOVES?!

bik is being a bitch today!
ugh!


hey baby,
i see you looking over here baby.
are you gonna keep looking or get up,
and talk to me,
here's and opportunity that you dont wanna miss tonight.



elegance


NATESHA ADMITTED ALAN SMITH IS NOT THAT BAD LOOKING!
YAY !
AND DONT THINK I DONT HAVE PROVE!
"HAHA, Alan Smith!i saw the match repeat, he ain't that bad looking"
it was in my haloscan.
THANKS NATESHA!
OMG!
LOVELY.
imma mark this day too!
210806

drama was okay.

i hate you jess and nadene !!!!
ugh!
go see paul never invite me?!
how could you?!
paul twohill fans, you can just get jealous reading jessica's blog!
feel free to kill them.
:D


elegance





its 1-1 now.
at the 80th minute.
LIV vs SHU.

my haloscan is being a bitch!
pffft.



elegance


thanks sheryl for buying me the bag as a present!
love ya babe.
and thanks alvina for going with sheryl?
lol.
the thing is i dont know if jess partly bought it, so i cant thank her just yet.

dance today was okay.
excited?
he was sad that mathilda went out?
haha.
hilarious!

bla bla bla


its just an unhealthy obsession



elegance





she's just so lovely:)

the most crazy people in KC
picture perfect:)

so now i could like finally go for netball.
just because there was anew coach?
and mannn,,, he drilled us in so hard mannn.
we did like pt, and i think he thinks that we are boys?
because he made us do like 6 suicides?????!!!!!!!!!!
know how much is that anort?
like ------------------------------------------------- this much!
we were like so tored and he was blind?

ohoh.
before netball, we were like so hungary.
but had no money.
so we were like walking down the aisle where all the stalls were.
and it was very empty. so we walked up and down, deciding what to buy.
so i was like,"eh, runway!"
and sheryl was like skipping. i mean it was SUPER hilarious.!!!
she was like walking like the "hommies"
trying to do some rap while walking?
galloping?
lol.
HILARIOUS!!!!
man she is loves!
and as we walked away frojm the chinese stall,
natesha's face was like showing like she wanna tear the place down!!!
that was HILARIOUS too !!!
haha
they are lOVES.!


are you the one?
are you the one doing all these evil work?
because the truth will soon be revealed.
i assure you.

elegant

aisyah=LOVES<3
two red indians:) <3

blogger is being irritating. it doesn't want to load the pictures i wanna load:( oh wells.
i will load more next time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!!!

met up with sheryl, jessica and aisyah in the morning.
met nadene as down town east.
sorry lah nadene, okay? make you wait so long. lol
entered www.
so we met this guy.
one of the lifeguards.
and trust me, others we just typical chee ko peks(spell), but errans wasn't really one
more like a friend?
so we rode the "ulah lah",
and we were about to come down from the boat, but errans turned the boat.
so we all fell down again.
and he kept turning it
and it was so hard to come down from it.!
"hey, do your work lah!"
so we planned to ride it again,
and when the ride end,
we planned to just stay in the boat,
and make him turn the boat as long as he wants until he gets tired.
but mission failed.
he changed shift.
awwww.
so sad.
in the shiok river,
we pulled him in and got him all wet.
so fun lah !!!!!

i just wished yesterday would go on and on. i wished yesterday would never end. because spending time with me besties, are the best thing to do on your birthday(other than family).
I REALLY WISH IT WOULD NEVER END.

see lah sheryl, i told you u shud get errans' number! i helped yuo but instead you gave me this grossed face ? haha,.
oh, and this is what we said to errans and what he replied:
sheryl: so you think you very cool lah ! turn turn us around.
errans: of course lah cool. you all also very hot what!

and we were like, what did he just say???!!!
and before we left, we said bye.
and he showed us this sad face and placed his hand on his chest, showing that he is heart broken/sad?
and he also showed the sign to call him ??? lol.
and nadene had ALOT of fans there ! ALOT !. all the LIFEGUARDS !!!!! hahah !!!

and we were sun tanning on our floats, in the shiok river. and all the lifeguards we past, made a comments. 2 of them were like saying to each other in malay,"woah, BEAUTIFAUL sia!"
lol.
then got one said to his friend in malay too " stare only!"
and the friend said "of course lah"
lol.

went to town to meet the rest.
for a while only.
then me, sheryl, jess and aisyah went to watch 'click' and we cried like SHIT!. lol.

and home.
i slept STRAIGHT AWAY.

and sheryl, i feel you.
canning would NOT solve the problem!<3


elegant


RANTS RANTS RANTS
BITCHING BTCHING BITCHING
yeah, thats what were good at.

natesha & shazlin=BITCHING PARTNER.


elegant


DAMN LAH ! i love Gani please. as in when he danced and sing. i think he is the only one who could dance AND sing. i mean like, others might think that he is no big deal but to me, he is GOOD.! i am so angry with the cameraman because they never show enough of Gani. i understand its not his show but still, he put up a good show. his actions are just so FARKING BIG AND NICE ! loves lah !!!! i wanna watch him dance and sing again. AND ONLY HIM!. i really do. when i went for the ndp preview, even tho i am seated so far and my eye sight sucks, i could see him dance and sing. i was just so attracted to his dancing.!!!!!!! so musculin! my eyes were only kept on him. his actions just so big! LOVES LAH !!! and i think he is hot. lol. he came my hse for hari raya coz he is my mom's friend, and i think he is hot. as i say,GAYS ARE HOT! haha...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE !!!!
singapore, my homeland.



elegant


LOVES! enthu kakis? lol
shit im too short!

i hate sheryl and natesha and jessica because they had a GREAT time tgt. tsk! im jealous! i want too! lol.

today doesn't fell like national day.



elegant


swimming at my cousin's house was okay. just got this irritating boy who was bugging us like shit. and my younger cousin wanted to bash him up but we stopped him:/ but it was okay. my neck hurts.

today in school super enthu with 2/4. iLOVE enthuness. 2/5 isn't that enthu. i cant stand not being so enthu during this kind of concert. esp with natesha, nadene, sheryl +++(2/4 ppl) enthuness rox! they rock! not saying that 2/5 dun rock but they are just not wnthu enough. i cant live without that.

bet jess, natesha and sheryl all having fun yea ???

i hope, i wish, ALL of my guests will enjoy thenselves during my b'dae celebration!



elegant


so me and my dear jess are like ranting about our parents? and yes, mum's so rock. agree.? some dont. i know. like my dear friend NATESHA.? lol. i know her story. i pity them. annoyin gi tell you. I SWAER. my brother now doesn't give a damn about what my dad says. but only cares about my mom? lol. tell me he's biased. lol. i am too. i think my dad gets the idea that he is being annoying but he still wants to carry on? i get already got A1 for maths, the subject i am VERY weak at, and now he tells me that i am wasting my time at the computer. cant he let me rest ahwhile. at least. he makes ALOT of noise that i am celebrating my b'dae wothfrens. i mean like who doesnt'? and he says that i dun care about the family. its on the eve of my b'dae for gods sakes? after working doubly hard, this is what i get. water works occurred and THEN he allowed. liek ugh ? jessica must be like nodding her head until her mushroom hair is everywhere because i can feel her. she is suffering just like some of us.

oh oh. and i swaertoo that natesha is dumb coz she kena caught during assembly for laughing. go read her blog. she claims that nadene is short. so she thinks she is very tall. but if she is tall, why couldn't she see that s was looking at her? some tall person huh? lol. 170 u say? haha.




elegant


thanks to my darling sheryl again for my haloscan. love u babe !<3

drama today= boring!

DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES= YAYNESS !

desperate housewives LAST EPISODE= SHITTTY SHIT !!! FARK!



elegant


aniwaes, many thanks to my halal purple dog, ISABEL.! thanks for trying to do a haloscan for me and in the end was NOT successful. but thanks for trying! thanks for using your the time for this. appreciate that! LOVES !

HELP AGAIN !:(


i think my skin is weird. but oh wells. too lazy alr. me n jessica giving out OUR invitations on tomorrow. let's challenge babehxx.! lol.!

i hope WWW is okay with you people. and towning too!
please make my birthday celebration a good and enjoyable one! please!
i want i want i want all my wish list to come true !:)



make THIS a fashion statement
-make it elegant , PLEASE


so i found this. and my haloscan is dead once again. so be patient.


i hate this i hate this.
i hate it when i have to find a new skin. the wabsite has some fucking problem and it is not working. and like wtf ? i want a new skin. a new and nice skin! god damn it! is it do hard to understand that. so as i said, this skin is temporary.!!!! ugh !
i need help.
HELP.

HUNTING FOR SKIN!!!!


OMG. my haloscan is alive babehhxxxxxx.....
THANK YOU SHERYL. I OWE YOU BABE. SOTHELOVES LAH. AND YES, FEEL THE LOVE !!!!!!!


make THIS a fashion statement
-mkae it elegant , PLEASE


MUMMY !!!!
OHMYMY. KAWAII NEXXXXX DONT THEY JUST LOOK A LIKE OR WHAT ????

RANDOM PICTURES.
sorry lah jess.
now then i know it CAMWHORING right??? i still remember YOU are the one who told me ! we were at cine i think. you see. <3>

7:39:00 PM

i just realize i am using lailin's old skin but i think it temporary? or maybe not? i just want a new and nice skin badly. but i just cant find one.

this is a reminder for natesha angullia: make sure u watch GHOST WHISPERER tonight. tell me im a good friend reminding you about this you forgetful..<3

are you calling me that ?

6:34:00 PM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

hello everyone
i have just changed my skin and i have no haloscan coz i dunno how to do it
i am waiting for jAssica to come online to help her dear friend here
i now only have the comment thingay which is pathetic
so HELP.


make THIS a fashion statement
-make it elgant , PLEASE

5:14:00 PM

NO SCHOOLTODAY

but i am still stuck at home please? TWO test tmr! i know the rest of my friends like jAssica is out now, right jAss?

right, i just looked at natesha and jAssica's blog, and god, both of them are the fugliest people on earth i tell you ! god im lucky i wasn't there.(actually, i do wish i was there. how nice was it to spend 3 hours with your BESTEST BEST BEST friends doing crazy stuffs? loves lah) i think both of them are equally fugly?! fugly i tell you, FUGLY! haha. but oh wells, i still love them<3 awww....

and yes sheryl, you DID show the constipated face. you are trying to deny it coz you didn't see it for yourself? hahahahaha....

LOVE THEM LARHS !




make THIS a fahsion statement
-make it elegant , PLEASE

4:04:00 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

sheryl actually thought that i was happy because victoria gave her his number? so i came running to her and said "u got ben's number right?" and she did her constipated face(haha) and said that i was happy that victoria gave sheryl ben's number. like, hello ? i was just like., ... shocked? wtv!

all the stress is over about dance. thought new coach coming today and had dance auditions today so i kinda had no mood? dunno why.

and the thucker jessica owes me a letter. and she betta make it fast or i'll kick her i the arsss.! and same goes to natesha.! i'll kick them real hard! esp sickly(:

i carnt stand looking at her! pffft!

I AM SO GONNA WATCH THE ADIDAS VIDEO AGAIN!



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-make it elegant , PLEASE

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